Some Girl Power for the Road

This is how I feel at the moment. 

With a little of this thrown in as well:

I've been out to change my world for as long as I can remember. And now I'm up to bat. I've got a trip to India coming up, then prospects in Shanghai, maybe even Cambodia. The globe just became very very small and very very open.

I recently got back from 16 months in Peru. That was a deeply personal time. Mostly I cried a lot, had no idea what I was doing, and felt a little crazy. If I helped anyone, it was most likely by accident or during my two minutes of feeling like I had it all together.

And that's the trick, really. I remember learning in high school psych that only depressed people have a realistic view of themselves. Most of us rate ourselves above average in one area or another, when it's technically impossible for the majority to be above average all at the same time. But the ones who have a high view of themselves, even if it's fake, are usually the ones with the lives we envy.

For my fellow nerds, there's a Doctor Who episode I absolutely love, when the Doctor is face to face against a monster that thinks it's satan. The satan character calls out everyone on the team by their fears, insecurities, and weaknesses. The Doctor responds, what makes his truth any better than mine? And proceeds to call out the same people by their courage, bravery, and strength.

The girly part of me is obsessed with Pink's song, Fuckin' Perfect. I listened to this an embarrassingly amount of times on repeat while in Peru. Don't hate. The best line is, "change the voices inside your head, make them like you instead." (once you feel better the next one to listen to is Raise Your Glass- just giving some options for your progressively power girl mix tape that you know you are going to make if you don't have one yet)

It's damn hard sometimes to believe the best about yourself. But if we did, really did- not just the "slightly above average" kind but the

  "I'm love incarnate, universally important, capable of the impossible, priceless, strong and beloved"

kind, I think, just maybe, life would be a little more awesome.